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welp, me and jill celebrated our 6 month it was very sweet we went to see old school which was very fuckin funny, will ferral is da man, after that we went to block buster and rented some flicks, and ordered a pizza, im happy i love her, ummm i guess we are playing the 22nd of march at the music station with 4 point restraint and 22 even, and then april 11th at the corktown tavern im not sure with who ask chris he prolly knows, and also we are playing april 7th at the magic stick which should be off the hook, we dont have a name yet but we will figure something out. tomorrow we are supposed to record some shit and i dont know how thats gonna go hopefully good cause yeh i want it to sound good hehe, ummm OH YEH i got a new goddamn car... a 93 ford probe, its black and its got style hah, but its real nice i like it it cost me fricken 2000 bucks though but hopefully it will serve me good, anyway i can hang out now!!!!!!!! woop woop, ahh i am tired and me and jill are gonna watch boondock saints now... great movie rent it and love it peace out fools
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ok so shannon once again i love you, she once again fixed my livejournal background. its pretty damn sweet if ya ask me. so ive been doing nothing but drinking workin and hanging out with jill, wednesday is our anniversary, "6 months" and its gonna be a good day, yesterday was mike bernats 21st birthday party... wooo let me tell ya it was off the heeeeezy fosheeeezy, happy birthday mike, everyone was trashed and having a great time... powerhouse was there and he was REAL cool, all in all it was great fun... i guess we have three shows booked coming up like at the corktown tavern and the music station, as of right now we are still working on a name, shit is goin good if we can practice more than once a month and pump out shit we will be golden, but i will keep yall posted on our shows and shit and you guys will be at our shows when they happen, we are gonna try and get some shows at the magic stick too hopefully we can cause i love that place in fact everyone should be there tomorrow night cause the Queers are playing and ive been waiting forever to see them it will be goddamn great!!! im out of here though later DUDES!!!!!!!!!!!!
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ok well after my last entry i guess i made someone pretty mad at me cause it said something about how cool jill is... by the way.. SHE DOESNT ROLL like on ecstacy you smart guys, i meant like rock and roll.... she doesnt roll ok can i clear that up... and so now i guess im also a dick cause shannon fixed my livejournal and i told someone to go look at it and from what i hear she thought i wanted her to see my entry about how cool jill is and she thought i was trying to rub it in her face so my friends all thinki am a dick... and kat hates me but you know i think it is really stupid if she is gonna hate me for thinking someone else is cool then thats fine... thanks for my hoody back, that really made me feel good to get that, it made me feel really good when the only words said to me were "here you go" all because a big misunderstanding... fuck it if you want to hate me hate me, you have no reason and if you do, if i did something so bad to make you hate me im sorry...
im sick and it sucks...`
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well its been forever since i updated this but my thing was all messed up anyway and now it is totally kick ass thanks to shannon!!!!!!!!!!1 everyone say thanks to her in her livejournal (bequietanddrive) if you didnt know. ummm the band is doing pretty good we have gained a bassiest mike is just gonna sing from now on, but ricky wingle tha man is playing bass for us now and its gonna be sweet, we have to practice in gabes basement now though cause last practice we got shutdown bye the FUCKING FUZZ, i should of been like "BOOK EM DANN-O~!" heh umm yeh. nothing really happening with me, i still got the sweet chops i gotta dye them black, ummm OH YEH I TURNED 20 YEARS OLD last sunday... the 29th, it was pretty sweet.. thanks to everyone who wished me a happy birthday.... umm yeh uhh ive been working, it sucks but im gonna get all buff and shit wait and see, umm im hungry and i want to eat wendys i never liked wendys till i started hangin out with gabe and kenny... oh yeh speaking of kenny HAPPY YEAR AND A HALF TO HIM AND KYLE! love birds.... umm yeh jill is quiet the kick ass lady.... she rocks... and belive it or not she rolls too, i mean what more could ya want? a rocker and a roller?! a duh
EVERYONE GO TO THE SHOW ON THE 18TH STARING : SOMETHING MORE SERIOUS, DANIEL, QUIT YOUR LIFE, ON THE CONTRARY AND 13 OFF!!!!!!! AT LE JIVE MUSIC CAFE IN WYANDOTEE ON MAPLE PLEASE GO
umm yeh thanks again to shannon MAD PROPS bye bye
~matt~
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well i havent updated ina really long time... twell you the truth i dont even really feel like doing it now but here goes, if you guys read this you will remeber that when me and kat were together i was writing like a happy little song thing like everyday, well since we have ended things i have been really down and drinking ALOT, but drinking is cool cause i like it. but its just like i have been lonely as hell and its like everytime i think a girl might like me... fuck they stop talking or something but halei, i like her, and we have hung out quite a few times and everytime its great just to be with her but it seems like everytime its me her and my friends she is bored and doesnt want to be there, and i just dont know whats up with her i mean... we are friends and that is awesome but i was kinda hoping to take it further, but that isnt gonna happen, cause she is "not sure what she wants" anyway i think ill just stop trying, i mean i callher everyday and if not she calls me but its just like i need a person to be more than friends, i look at her and just smile, and then i kinda lock myself away sitting in the corner thinking when will stop feeling like shit day after day, i honestly thought something would happen between us but i guess, it was just myself jumping ahead of things, i always fuck shit up anyway, if we got together i would probably end up hurting her somehow, thats like my forte. then there is kathryn, i thought we were gonna end things on good terms and now everytime i see her she looks happy and beautiful and cheery, until she sees my face, im sorry... i dont know anymore i dont even know if im making sense.
let see umm thursday me and gabe go to the stick with kenny, gabes battery dies after a bunch of shit we finally have shawn meekins drive us home, we almost get beat up like twice, once by skin heads then by some huge homeless guy at a gas station and then he almost kills us driving home with his knees... why was he driving with his knees? cause he was smoking a fucking BOWL! haha oh well. friday... me gabe and his dad go to get his car spend all day trying to fix it we make some progress, but his shit was so corroded, at like 7 mike comes over to hang out... yeh thats right MIKE! halei comes over and we go to dennys, at dennys gabe said something that really pissed me off and made me feel like total shit... it was something along the lines of... "i hate when people just invite people to my house, and when they just hang out cause cause they can drink beer and make out with girls" or something along those lines and then he looks directly at me when saying it. ok i usually dont just invite people over i have and im sorry its not cool, but i dont stay at gabes house just to drink beer cause his dad isnt home and to make out with girls... i hope he was joking but it doesnt matter, i mean i only stay there to a) hang out with him, b) cause he lives in licoln park and im in rockwood and thats quite the far drive, i do toss him gas money alot, and gabe if you dont want to hang out or pick me up say so its not like ill die if im not at your house, like i feel like im imposing sometimes when you hang out with jackie and im there i dont know man it just sucks cause once again im all depressed and everylittle thing is bothering, and now gabes prolly gonna think im pissed at him or something but im not...i love the kid, anyway i dont know my birthday is coming up september 29th, and i hope i get my acoustic electric, it would be totally awesome, if not oh well. my friend steve, who is gonna be doing my sleeve, said he could hook me up cheap for my tattoo that i want to get for my birth day. i am getting an old school microphone, like elvis stiyle on the inside of my left upper arm with some orange and blue and purple behind it, and above it it is gonna say... "you could slit my throat..." i think it will be sweet, i love tattoos, ummm i dont really know.
so here i am again writing in this online journal, seems like im searching for sympothy,
but as i type all night, i pull my hair and i cant get the words out, so ill just go tobed and when i take off my shirt maybe it will fasten around my neck, and ill sleep eternally on the corner of my floor, but thats not what i want i just want to stop smiling upside down, i want jaws to hurt from smiling and my head to hurt from spinning, i want to shoot up herion again like i did that one night when we were just friends. i want so many things i cant have but mostly i just want to laugh.
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i walked up and down this same old street, like i always do clearing things away saying fuck it all, what am i doing, why does it feel like sometimes im all alone when my friends are surrounding me? as the day is wasted and night time draws nearer, i have but only two friends staying with me through the night... gabe and bud light, the occasional friends stop by and its great but what that friend that i tell everyone "i cant hang out today, today is OUR day together" where is that friend i buy gifts to make her happy, leave her surpirses to keep her knowing that im always thinking of her, and that girl i can lay with and tell her how happy i am and how much i love her... i love my friends so much with out them i would be a mess... i want to thank all my friends right now for being kick ass, and when im down they keep me alive thanks...
"the stars at night are big and bright"
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well... its been a little while since ive updated this so lets see... umm well ill just tell you how things are goin... ummmm lets see well.... i dont really remeber too much of what ive done cause the days have just passed so quick but i do remember saturday... well me chris and gabe stayed up till like 5 am friday night and we woke up at like 1130 on saturday cause we had to pack our shit up cause we were playing at le jive... so we did that and we got everything done around i dunno 2 ish and we had till about 630 before things started happening so we just hung out and killed time. gabe was at work at like 3 and around 4 or so me brad dane dave and chris went to southland, i called halei and ended up meeting her and jammie up there too. we also saw kevbo and chris.. me and brad played marvel vs capcom two he smoked my ass but it was fun thanks to ami for hooking us up too. well after that i met up with halei and jammie and walked around the mall with them for a tad... and halei let me wear her shirt... thanks alot man! any who we went back to le jive and people started coming.. there were alot more people there that i didnt know than that i did. kevin and dans band formorly known as "non chalante" was sweet they could definatly use practice but good non the less, and 13 off they were good too those guys are soo funny, when it was time for us to play i think we did pretty fucking good we had a lot of people, alot of energy and alot of laughs im glad all you guys came out and enjoyed it maybe youll come see us again, there were some people that were not there that i wish was but oh well. also i ended up stripping down to my boxers it was sweet, after the show a shit load of us went down to eureka coney island and ate chris was being a sweetheart to halei... yeh right they got into it a little chris was being an ass and it made me really mad. he is like that to every girl that is like close to me or gabe... he was mean to kat to the point where it made her mad and it made me mad too, he is like that to jackie too i mean he just takes it too far and doesnt know when to quit, anyway we went to gabes afterwards and it was alright there should of been more people but it was cool, kenny showed his social engineering skills off to a couple people and made it a pretty alright night hehe, i dont know though i mean it was really great being with halei and ill get into that in a sec, anyway sunday sucked i had to work and i kinda wanted to hang out with halei but she was hanging out with kenny and decided to go to bed so its cool i mean i know she was tired and so was i but i dont sleep anyway, yesterday(monday) i did nothing till about 5 when jeff gave me a ride to the mall and i gave kenny his money and hun out there till he got off work at ten then i went to gabes sat around and grilled up food and went home, today i worked and afterwards i hung out with halei at jackies house with gabe shannon allison and jamie, we went to Burger king and got some food we got shacted on our two tacos so we went back and got them they were kinda gross. ALSO ill end this paragraph with kat hates me... but you know what she doesnt even know anything all she knows is im a jack ass which i am but she hates me and thats that, im not gonna let it show though as much as it bugs me...ill get over it i guess.
ok so anyway, ummm i told halei how i felt and i dont know how that went but im really not sure, and like that past two days ive felt really down and all i really want to do is talk to her and its like i just feel like im just there to have someone to be bored with i dunno if that makes sense... but its like i feel weird around her like im not supposed to have anyfeelings about her, but man the girl is georgous and she cracks me up and she hangs out and she is my age(actually older) and its like seems so perfect, i always have a blast with her but i dont know im just gonna get hurt like always, but thats my fault i guess... i dont know if im even making sense im just like rambling...and i hate being lonely.
"sunset in the park"
you ever wanna hang out with one person all day, wanna hear their voice you dont care what they say? and the fact that they are there standing by your side, holding your hand, makes you warm all over inside, and how bout how they make you laugh, and smile, and you wonder if it only lasts a little while, but after they are gone you notice they're there, making you smile you can smell her on what you wear, and you say to yourself as you close lids, the night was great we were like kids, and when you wake up the day you hope for the same, thats what you do to me... you know your name
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well kiddos... im still sunburned to shit but its ok... well today at like 2 i woke up and called halei cause we were supposed to do something today, and i told her i had to take a shower and shit and go to the bank so i did that stuff and all. and came back and called her well we had a little miscommunication and ended up at two different places to meet each other but we got together anyway cause we rock like that and we said well what are we gonna do? so we decided to go to the movies... we also decided on goldmember but we had a little time to kill so we decided on taco bell, after we ate taco bell, we decided to go back to the theater and watch the movie... it was hilarious me and halei both decided on the fact that the movie was really good and funny, after that we decided to go to flat rock and get her cousin who walked to huroc park and we went back to her house and she was cool, she gave halei this bendable squidward, we decided it was cool, after that we went to ummm walk around bishop park, it was nice we spun around on the merry go round YAY we decided to stop cause it was hurting our stomachs. then we went to dairy queen i saw nate peck he is a cool guy, halei buaght me an ice cream cone we decided that was a nice gesture, then we went to her house and i met her parents and sister they were all cool we rolled up 101 dollars worth of change while we watched the rest of dude wheres my car with her parents, then jammie came over and we decided to go to riverview playscape and hang out for a little jammie decided she was hungry so we went to the truck stop, i decided on a sald and water and jammie decided on some weird mexican salad, halei didnt get anything... i guess she couldnt decide. for about ahalf hour though jammie and halei talked on the phone to this guy from las vegas it was boring but oh well... then we decided to leave and she dropped me off... i had a awesome time hanging out with halei and jammie... i hope to do it again... halei really rocks and she is a blast to be with... i wish something more could happen between us but it probably wont but anyway im off to smoke a Square and ive deicded to go to bed...
P.S. like how i used "decided" like 14 or 15 times hahah i did it on PURPOSE!!!!!
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ok so today was warped and last night i drank alot so i was feeling too good but then i got better but anyway... it was sunnny and hot as hell my face and arms are burnt to shit, but on with the bands.... guttermouth FUCKING INCREDIBLE ummm i watched so many bandsumm goldfinger damn dude... reel big fish.... GODAMN DUDE, ummm something corporate was good i didnt watch all their set but they had some energy man... ummm the deviates rockewd the house in, NFG... HAHAHAH yeh right... good chralotte was horrible alkaline trio i didnt watch but i listened to them and they still were not great music sounded good but im not a fan so eh... hot chicks like whoa...ummm pop and water yeh that was bull shit they only had one like stand thingy it sucked ummm saw lots of people i know but i think the best part was watching mustard plug i love them guys and this was sweet they had them playing in this little ass tent and me and kase go and i jump into the pit right after like two songs the X-MEN! jump up and are like you guys have to back out of the tent so after like 5 minutes noone budges dave kirchinger or what ever his last name is from MP starts yelling "mustard plug" and everyone goes crazy and yells and shit then they start playing again cause people backed off well they start playing throw a bomb right away and the crowd explodes next thing you know they are unplugged man word has it they are banned from warped tour!!!!
fucking sweet
hometowns pride baby anyway also today was like MATT'S EX GIRLFRIEND REUNION....on the way in it was amber and dayna and tina and ami... then saw kathryn and hung out with her for a lot of the time which was awesome as hell... anyway i saw alot of people i knew MELISSA was there she is so funny anyway im tired and sore im off to bed!
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well guys its been a while and nothing really too spectacular happend...umm let see, me and kat are no longer together but i guess we decided it was for the best anyway and we ended it on good terms which im so glad that it ended like that it ending sucks bad but it happens. tonight was taking back sunday and it was incredible...
well... here halei called me like a week ago or so asking if i was going to TBS and i said yeh and she wanted to go with us and i said i dont know cause at the time it was a full ride and i guess the way i said it sounded like i didnt want her to go... but i did i mean she is cool as hell why wouldnt i. then today i totally forgot to call her and let her know if she could go with us or not and when i called her it was an hour before the show and like the show was sold out anyway but we werent sure so we were gonna take her but she wouldnt of gotten her ticket in time and shit so i told her we were just gonna go... which once again i guess turned out to sound like an asshole again... so she asked me to get her a cd and like a pin, so i did, and i went and opened her cd and got adam, the lead singer of tbs, and ed the guitarist and their drummer mark i think his name is to sign it and i looked all over for the other two and couldnt find them so i was like this will do.(i also bought my self three pins and a trucker tbs hat its titties) well after the show i called her up and told her to go to dennys, when we got there i tok her to gabes car to give her her shit, and i showed her the pin then the cd... i showed her the insert and she got happy and i felt like a nice guy then she asked how much she owed me and i said dont worry about it and i felt like a nicer guy then she told me she wrote bad shit about me in her journal and i felt like shit but halei IM SORRY... anyway i dont think she hates me anymore... which is cool... umm everyone needs to go to our show its august 24th its a saturday it starts at 630 first band is at 7.. it will be us(something more serious) 13 off, and NONchalante and one more tba. umm its 5 bones but it is definatly gonna rock so be there please show some support. umm we have like a bunch of songs too it will definatly be titties and umm thats all for now./.. take it easy guys
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well ill bet you guys will never guess what im doin or where i am.... IF YO GUESSED DRINKING BREW AT GABES HOUSE!!! your correct ive been sober twice since last tuesday but anyway i miss kathryn i miss her so.... but you know what chris... i will marry you.. infact fuck kat she means not as much as you i wanna have your baby.... any way yeh my brothers wedding i was talking about but had to leave.. when i saw his wife come out of the doors in her dress i seriously almost cried i was holding back tears i thought wow my brother is happy and his wife is beautiful and i kept trying to picture myself on my wedding day and how happy i would be and i thought man how is my brother holding up i would be smiling so big and almost in tears you know then i thought well he probably actually is... but it was seriously a great day i felt so happy for him... anyway umm i havent got my phone turned off yet cause my bro forgot to do it and he is on his honeymoon in fucking niagra falls where he proposed to hear... hes the man... so if you wanna call me go right a head... anyway we gotta show august 17 at i think its called the music cafe in wyandotte as of right now all i know is that bedford drive is playing too but my friend melanie is the like organizer so ill talk to her sometime soon and clue you guys in on exact shit/.//anyway me and gabe have fucking been grilling shit for like the past week... and its been titties everynight,... umm i dont know what to say othertthan kathryn i miss you and also JAMMIE IF YOU SEE THIS I JUST WANT TO SAY HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY I HOPE IT ROCKED AND IM SORRY I HAVENT TOLD YTOU THIS YET. me and gabe went to less than jake and it was amazing then nest wednesday i got to go to taking back sunday and then sunday is warped tour but saturday is our show so i hope alot of you come see us play PLEEEEEEEAAAAAAASSSSSSEEEE!
LOVE MATTHEW
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well hey its been a long time since i have updated and i dont really feel like typing alot. but i probably will anyway, umm ive been hangin out with gabe like everyday and its really col that he has picked me up almost everytime, weve been drinking some brew and grilling. umm my brothers wedding was great. except there wasnt any alcohol but that was tookin care of. yeh but im out of here for now i might update later and tell more to yall niggys
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well my brothers wedding is tomorrow im happy that he is happy... i dont think todays journal; will be too long im a little woozy right now but anyway... i was in a great mood.. i saw kyle today she has been in toronto im glad she is back cause she makes me laugh she is a funny girl but also i hung outm with kat today... also we practiced which was sweet cause we wropte yet another new song it is pretty sweet butr its gonna need alot of work... but i was happy till about five minutes ago when i read kathryns live journal entry for today... it made me so fucking sad i wanna tear my eyes out for reading it... kat... if you did something like that... you know how many people you would hurt and if you think noone would notice your wrong but i justn want to say im sorry cause obviously im not making you happy.. and you told me there was nothing i could do.. ive told you once ill tell you againb a smile on your face for 1 minutes makes me happy for the whole day.. amnd i know i saw you smile today but it feels like your not happy with me i dont know what to do... i care too much for you to just let you be sad i mean i know i get that way and i know you do too every now and again but if your comptemplating suicide man i dont even im falloing for you fast and every day i see you is more joy i get out of my life and i wish i could make you feel that way...
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well my brothers wedding is tomorrow im happy that he is happy... i dont think todays journal; will be too long im a little woozy right now but anyway... i was in a great mood.. i saw kyle today she has been in toronto im glad she is back cause she makes me laugh she is a funny girl but also i hung outm with kat today... also we practiced which was sweet cause we wropte yet another new song it is pretty sweet butr its gonna need alot of work... but i was happy till about five minutes ago when i read kathryns live journal entry for today... it made me so fucking sad i wanna tear my eyes out for reading it... kat... if you did something like that... you know how many people you would hurt and if you think noone would notice your wrong but i justn want to say im sorry cause obviously im not making you happy.. and you told me there was nothing i could do.. ive told you once ill tell you againb a smile on your face for 1 minutes makes me happy for the whole day.. amnd i know i saw you smile today but it feels like your not happy with me i dont know what to do... i care too much for you to just let you be sad i mean i know i get that way and i know you do too every now and again but if your comptemplating suicide man i dont even im falloing for you fast and every day i see you is more joy i get out of my life and i wish i could make you feel that way...
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